Live With Excitement: February 2011

Friday, February 25, 2011

10 Things I hate About Clinical Trial

1. I hate the way it took over my time on weekend..work 24/7 seems wasn't enuf.

2. I hate the way I've to drive my car to RMI (Research Management Institution)

3. I hate it when people stare (coz I walk like a crazy gurl @clinic)

4. I hate the way CRA's read my mind.Do they?

5. I hate so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.

6. I hate the way auditors are always right despite of me being hardworking and try my best!

7. I hate it when I've to lie coz I'm tired

8. I hate it when my investigators make me laugh, even worse when he make me cry (once).

9. I hate it when he's not around, and the fact that he always call (let me enjoy my holiday plz)

10. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate it, not even close…not even a little bit… not even at all.

I 'HATE' Clinical Trials (^__^)

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Pliz Understand Me

The new study is ready to start.. So many things dat I have to sort out. I've to go through NMRR for research registration (despites of all the confusion created by me and boss).. Apply for CTIL @ NPCB. Nobody knows how hard I'm trying to get things solve with my boss 'pushing' me close at the back (want everything to be ready in a blink of an eye)... Still, I've to get my feet on the ground, run as fast as I can.Thinking and decide as fast as I could and try as hard as I am. I'm surviving with it becoz he is my BIGboss, my idol and I believe I'll grow stronger and better with him.

But, I'm a bit dissappointed wif few close people and frenz who did not understand how struggle I am. I hate when people said I am selfish. For wat??? Becoz I dun care much to u?Bcoz I rarely speak to u.Becoz I am on my own world? Bcoz I can't spend time with u? Becoz u juz got some small little thing? Do I really need to pay attention on dat? Come on! You're a big grown person. Live it ur own life. Dun keep depending on others for such small things.

My head, is spinning like crazy around thinking hardly how to resolve thing, not to think how ur pain, hows ur mood, hows ur day and how u survive. For God sake! I dun even have time to call my parents each day. U can stand, eat, talk and laugh. I dun have dat much time to laugh either. So wat the heck of complaining ur pain,dizziness,giddiness (simple symptoms) n 'busy'ness.Please.. Get the hell out of my life, (for the small thing) and live independantly. Learn to make decision on ur own. My dear sis,wherever u r,please do let me 'breath' a bit..Yet I still love all of u even i didn't pick up d phone or reply ur text.

I'm juz a normal human being.. I do have feelings and I do have one mind and two hands. Sometimes I am out of control, sometimes I feel like going crazy, sometimes I feel dat i need to be alone.. Juz please give me that 'sometimes'.. So that I could be normal as others.

Dear Mum,Sorry for being ignorance. I'll call u everyweek and tq for being there to listen and motivates me....

Dear GreatFriend,All of u such a good fren. Tq for putting a smile on my face when I feel like I can't smile. i'm indeed sory if i am a selfish frend and being ignorance or heartless. I do want to spend more time with all but I can't....Dear Dad,I'm sorry for not visiting u at home. Its not becoz i dun want. It is juz we've some 'internal' problem. Hope u owez love me...
Dear My Beloved Sis,Sorry for not be there when u need me. Sorry if i didn't get wat u want and my apologize to broke so much promises and most of the time forget wat I'd said and promise.Coz, I'm Dory the Fish....(u noe wat I mean)

Love,
Research Maniac Forever

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Monday, February 21, 2011

Hari-Hari Terakhir Projek ARISTOTLE (Token Of Appreciation)

Hmmm..minggu ni merupakan follow up paling last utk patient2 aku. Agak sedih and penat sbb hari ni jer, berbondong2 patient datang, sampai tak menang tangan nak manage. Seb baek ada Kak As dan Kak Nab membantu. Aku tak sempat utk bersarapan kerana pada masa yang sama ada Site Monitoring Visit untuk study lagi satu kat Hospital Selayang. Rasa cam nak belah dua jer badan aku neh...

Aku sabar jer.. Alhamdulillah, DKY pon mood bagus hari ni. Gembira aku seketika. Dia sabar menunggu aku yang agak kelam kabut sbb tak well prepared (klinik patut hari rabu ditukar hari isnin..tak sempatla nak baca semua history patient..susah nak present case). Setelah penat berlari ke hulu ke hilir, akhirnya habis gak klinik aku.. Poketku penuh ngan sampul warna merah. Apa agaknya yek?? Hihi.. Part paling enjoy wat research ialah tiap kali sambutan hari raya (Aidilfitri, CNY,Christmas, besday) mesti dapat adiah dari patient. Sebenarnya aku tak harapkan pon. Cukupla aku tengok patient tu sihat and gembira di bawah jagaan kami (hal yang sama aku doakan pada ahli keluarga). Tapi, masuk hari nih, aku dapat berpuluh keping angpau dan total hampir RM160. (Rezeki..alhamdulillah). Dah abes, aku pon pi kat lab, tiba masa utk jadi Lab Technologist lak..ahakz! Tiba2 dapat panggilan dari DKY...

DKY: Syuhada...emm..one of d patient gave me envelope. U ambik. Ada kat tepi meja kiri..

Aku: Hah? Apa dia..I tak faham...

DKY: Ada sampul tu.. u amik...

Aku: Sy anta kat opis Dato' nanti yer?

DKY: Tak perlu. U amik.

Aku: ???? (perlu ke aku simpan?)

Aku berlalu ke bilik consultation and ada sampul merah kat tepi meja. Aku menahan gelak.. Huarghhahaha... Tak sangka ada gak patient yang baik hati bagi angpau kt org yang dah kaya.. Last2, dapat kat aku. (kira bonus kecil dari daddy la..) Terimbas kembali kenangan klinik yang lepas, ada patient bagi kopi dari Bali, last2 dia handover kat aku gak.. Ye la, stakat kopi dari Bali dia tak heran kot, Dia minum kopi dari Jamaica. Wangi and lebih sedap..

So, hari ni aku gembira walaupun penat. Malam tadi tak dapat lelapkan mata. Berfikir..berfikir dan berfikir. I'm happy to be useful.

Token of Appreciation from my beloved Patients