Feeling Blue Today

When U think that people (mostly siblings) are there to help.. True enough, some are really supportive but some are taking advantage. It is dissappointing thinking that the closest blood related person were taking us for granted. Some are helping wishing that we could then 'pay' them back. And some were there to just happily smirk when you are facing difficulties in managing the event. People, which sometimes you think that you shouldn't trust anyone except yourself.

As for today, the feeling did not grow fonder to the close family. I was rather crying thinking how people treat us like a bank. Spend as much of our money to accomodate themselves or feel like we could supply money whenever things needed. Truthfully, do you know how hard for us to earn the money? We seems happy and loaded, coz we didi not spend for something unnecessary. Did I buy any VW car which I can afford to buy now? I still driving my small Viva (malaysia car!). Did I spend my money buying those fancy handbag? Did I? Because to what I understand, those things faded quickly. The fame and famous means nothing. You drive fancy car, yet you don't have friends. You wear fancy handbag, and you can't treat your best friend. Because you are saving your money to buy another fancy handbag!

And, when I am loaded. They asked me to sponsor this and that. But when it came to my oown wedding, they shut their mouth and hide their hand. Stay as far as possibly so I could not come and begging for help. Well, thats how people are. But, god are always there. The helps come from other people who previously we ignore. And people that never begging for help. Alhamdulillah. Now, Allah has shown me the true color of some people. And for that, I will never trust people. I keep distance, and never let people to take me for granted anymore.

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Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

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