Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Busy and Wandered Mind

Wordless Wednesday: A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words = One Look is Worth A Thousand Words
Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Perubahan Penampilan Lagi

Sangat sedih kerana terpaksa tukar style lagi.. Hanya kerana ingin mendapatkan kesihatan yang lebih baik setelah mengalami sakit2 lutut..didiagnosiskan sebagai early PFJ Osteoarthritis..Maklumat lanjut sila baca Rheumatology Journal .. So, kena la berjaga2 walaupun baru suspected...

Daripada ini:
Formal shoes


Occasion heels
Tukar kepada ini

Unavoidable style
Harap kaki aku akan cepat baik and tak payah buat MRI tu.. takut!!!

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Love that we can not have is the one that last the longest

If you’re not the one for me,
and I still think you’re perfect,
think of how amazing
it will be to find the one who is.

Days continue to pass,
stars continue to shine.
Why do I have tears in my eyes today
when he was NEVER mine?

The one who makes me the happiest,
is always the one who is already taken.

Love… Why does it hurt?
Why does it ache?
Maybe because we love too much and too deep that
sometimes we forget to keep a little for ourselves…
sad but true.

You never lose by loving. You always lost by holding back.
Should I smile because he’s my friend,
or cry because that’s all he is?


Love that we can not have
is the one that last the longest,
hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.
I am everything you want;
I am everything you need;
I am everything inside of you
that you wish you could be.
I say all the right things,
at exactly the right time,
but I mean nothing to you and I don’t know why?

A mighty pain to love it is,
And ’tis a pain that pain to miss;
But of all pains, the greatest pain
It is to love, but love in vain.

Abraham Cowley

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.
Washington Irving

 Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.
Charlie Brown

An act of love that fails is just as much a part of the divine life as an act of love that succeeds, for love is measured by fullness, not by reception.
Harold Lokes

Let no one who loves be called unhappy. Even love unreturned has its rainbow.
James Matthew Barrie

Perhaps a great love is never returned. ~Dag Hammerskjold

I know I am but summer to your heart, And not the full four seasons of the year. ~Edna St. Vincent Millay

Loving can cost a lot but not loving always
costs more, and those who fear to love often
find that want of love is an emptiness that robs
the joy from life.
~Merle Shan
Somewhere there must one
Made for this soul, to move it.
~William Johnson Cory

Somewhere there’s someone who dreams of your smile,
And finds in your presence that life is worth while,
So when you are lonely, remember it’s true:
Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.

4. Tennessee Williams

There is a time for departure even when there’s no certain place to go.

5. Samuel Butler

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.

6. Toni Braxton

How could an Angel break my heart? Why didn’t he catch my falling star? I wish I didn’t wish so hard. Maybe I wished our love apart.

9. Herman Hesse

Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.

Alan Watts

Such is the inconsistency of real love, that it is always awake to suspicion, however unreasonable; always requiring new assurances from the object of its interest.
Ann RadcliffeThe Mysteries of Udolpho, 1764

To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving in all others.
Anne-Sophie Swetchine

Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be.
Anton Chekhov (1860 – 1904)

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
Bertrand Russell (1872 – 1970)Marriage and Morals (1929) ch. 19

Clarity of mind means clarity of passion, too; this is why a great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves.
Blaise Pascal (1623 – 1662)

The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.
Carl Jung (1875 – 1961)

There’s an evolutionary imperative why we give a crap about our family and friends. And there’s an evolutionary imperative why we don’t give a crap about anybody else. If we loved all people indiscriminately, we couldn’t function.
David FosterHouse M.D., TB or Not TB, 2005

To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.
David ViscottHow to Live with Another Person, 1974

There’s a lot to be said for self-delusionment when it comes to matters of the heart.
Diane Frolov and Andrew SchneiderNorthern Exposure, First Snow, 1993

Oh, life is a glorious cycle of song,
A medley of extemporanea;
And love is a thing that can never go wrong;
And I am Marie of Romania.
Dorothy Parker (1893 – 1967)Not So Deep as a Well (1937), “Comment”

One’s first love is always perfect until one meets one’s second love.
Elizabeth AstonThe Exploits & Adventures of Miss Alethea Darcy, 2005

All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand.
Ella Wheeler WilcoxO Magazine, February 2004

Love is everything it’s cracked up to be…It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.
Erica JongO Magazine, February 2004

When love is in excess it brings a man no honor nor worthiness.
Euripides (484 BC – 406 BC)Medea, 431 B.C.

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 – 1900)“On Reading and Writing”

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Anugerah Allah

Memandangkan aku belom jadi ibu bapa (jauh lagi..jadi isteri pon belom kan)... maka melayan je la anak anak kecil di klinik paed di tingkat 1.. 

Seronok rasanya bila anak2 yang jujur dan selalu curious.. Bersemangat untuk belajar.. Tanya itu dan ini sehingga kehilangan kata2 untuk menjawab.. 

And aku, memerhatikan je la anak2 ni..Last2 aku ajak budak ni main, daripada dia tanya banyak2 soalan, bek aku ajar membaca ABC..ngehngeh.. Enjoy!!

Having fun with the game

Used to be my favourite game

Energetic kids

He would like to join us

Another game
Someone has left behind

And she welcomed.. The more the merrier!

This young boy enjoy himself..adrenaline rush!

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Majlis Berendoi Adat Melayu

Majlis ni bukanlah wajib di kalangan masyarakat.. cuma terpulang pada deorang nak buat ke tak.. So far, family aku memang tak pernah buat majlis2 macam ni.. 

Pendek kata, family aku bukan jenis yang suka buat majlis.. Kecuali majlis kawen dan bertunang.. hehe

Ni masa weekend, dapat jemputan dari Aishah and family. so, aku ambil peluang untuk mengenali adat2 melayu yang aku tak tahu...

Secara keseluruhannya, agak bagus juga la...


Marhaban diikuti majlis cukur jambul

Buah tangan



Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Pregnancy Test (Ujian Kehamilan)

Memandangkan ramai dah staff sekitar aku yang pregnant, maka terbuka la pintu hati nak buat pregnancy test ni. So, basically, aku bukan ambil tahu sangat tentang pregnancy kit ni. Dah lama tinggalkan maklumat tentang hormon2 dan tindakbalas sejak masuk bidang research, kardio plak tu.

Aku test sebab masa tu, kawan aku ni test tak jadik pape (sebelum ni test positif). Even line control pon tak kuar. So aku dengan rasa berdebar (cewah!) pi buat ujian ni.

Ramai gak yang bertanya bilakah waktu paling tepat untuk buat ujian ni?

Jawapan: Sekurang2nya selepas seminggu lewat period (haid).. Kalau setakat 2 – 3 hari delay tu tak payah la… Kenapa? Sebab hormone hcG (hormone chorionic gonadotropin) hanya didapati dalam lebih kurang 7 hari selepas conception. Hormon ni akan meningkat setiap hari dan cecah nilai tertinggi pada minggu ke 10. So, jangan bazir duit dan tenaga untuk buat test  ni setiap hari…

Macam mana nak buat test ni?
Senang jer.. Yang kita perlukan hanyalah urin (air kencing). Kalau yang jenis strip, celup aje dalam urin, kalau yang macam kat bawah ni, kena titis. Paling penting, baca arahan yer.. Jangan main buat je…

Boleh caya ke pregnancy kit ni?
Boleh.. 95-99% tepat jika dibuat selepas 7 hari lewat period. Kalau awal sangat, den tak janji…

Cara2 nak baca result.. Sila rujuk gambar di bawah…


Mula2 buat negative.. pastu bila check semula positif pulak. Apa kes?
Tu false negative namanya… Antara sebab berlakunya false negative ni :
  •   Air kencing cair (diluted). Sebaik2nya test air kencing pertama pada waktu pagi (pas bangun tido) sebab masa tu urin paling pekat.
  •  Salah ‘timing’.. Setiap kit ambil masa yang berbeza untuk tunjukkan result. So, baca dulu arahan baru buat..
  • Buat test terlalu awal.. Macam yang den cakap tadi, sehari lewat period dah test, memang tak positif la.. Buat test sekurang2nya 7 hari lewat period okeh.

Kadang2 ada gak false positif.. Macam mana plak?

Kes ni boleh berlaku (tapi sangat JARANG) sekiranya:
·         Ada ambil ubat yang mengandungi hcG macam as Pregnyl, A.P.L., Profasi, Chorex, Novarel, atau Ovidrel atau promethazine (yang digunakan sebagai antihistamine untuk merawat simptom2 alergik dan muntah2.)
·         Kehadiran darah atau protein dalam urin
·         Ambil diuretics 
·         Guna Pregnancy Kit yang DAH EXPIRED.

So, pada yang result POSITIF, TAHNIAH!! – Jangan lupa jumpa doctor untuk pengesahan dan ujian selanjutnya. Selamat menjadi ibu dan ayah. Anda selangkah ke hadapan.
Dan pada yang result NEGATIF, CUBA LAGI YA!! – Jangan putus asa. Usaha tangga kejayaan


Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Meminang Anak Dara Orang

Malam 11 Feb 2012, kami sibuk membuat persiapan sambil berFB.. Dah ada WiFi, masing2 macam nak giler la online...

 Adat bertunang, hantaran wajib ada kan.. Hantaran ni digubah oleh keluarga angkat adik aku kat Negeri Sembilan. Maklumlah, derorang lebih berpengalaman bab2 nikah kawen ni. Kami... zero! Hehe..

Sirih Junjung
Butterfly tu adik aku punya idea

Tempat cincin.. beli kat ganu

Aku sponsor kek nih.. maklumlah,nak buat hantaran tak reti..


Persalinan majlis akad nikah

Sponsored by fosterfamily adik aku

Mar yang pilih bakul tu...

Bila dah sampai, dibalas dengan hantaran jugak.. Ada 12 hantaran kalau tak silap...
Buah dalam sangkar

Kain pelikat..lalalala

The best ever..burung puyuh dua sejoli


Tu ajer yang aku sempat snap..maklumlah, malu nak snap banyak2..

Sebelum bertolak..sempat le bergambar barang dua tiga keping..
Kami berempat jer la yang ada...

Bakal pengantin 
Mama yang hepi dapat menantu

Aku yang happy dapat adik ipar

Mak long yang happy dapat anak sedara

Eyka yang hepi dapat doorgift.. WT????

Pas majlis jer aku terus bertolak ke KL. Drive sorang2.. Mengantuk yang teramat sangat masa tu. So, berhenti kat R&R Senawang, tido selama setengah jam...

Akhirnya.. Selamat sampai... Alhamdulillah...

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Adat bertunang_Mari Berpantun

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Friday, February 10, 2012

Cubaan Pertama ~ Buih Buih Cintaku

4 Biji putih telur
5 Sudu Gula
Esen Vanilla
20 gram agar2 (or 12 gram)
1 liter air
Susu cair (Pewarna Putih)
Pewarna (Suka hati la nak warna apa)

1. Pukul telur putih sehingga kembang. Jika diterbalikkan mangkuk, buih tidak jatuh. Masukkan esen vanilla. 2. Putar. (Sila guna mesin, kalau putar ngan tangan memang 'tough' muscle).
3. Sambil tu masak agar2 tadi bersama 1 Liter air. (Jangan bazir masa)
4. Tambahkan gula. Kacau.
5. Asingkan adunan kepada 3 bahagian (atau nak 4 bahagian ke)
6. Campurkan buih tadi secawan ke dalam adunan agar2 yang telah dimasak.
7. Campurkan pewarna.
8. Tuang lapisan pertam dan letakkan ke dalam peti sejuk beku. (Tunggu dengan penuh sabar. Sambil2 tu basuhla bekas2 yang digunakan untuk masak agar2 tadi)
9. Agak2 dah sejuk bahagian atas (lapisan nipis agar), bolehlah lapiskan dengan lapisan kedua.
10. Ulang langkah 8 dan seterusnya.

Sebenarnya puding buih ni tak sepatutnya ada layer yang clear tu... So, beberapa faktor penting untuk menghasilkan puding buih yang terbaik adalah:

  • Sukatan agar agar dan 'buih' mesti sama rata. Bila dicampurkan agar agar dan buih mestilah keseluruhan buih tu meliputi agar agar...

  • Lapisan kedua dan ketiga mestilah dituang sebelum agar2 betul betul mengeras. So, lapisan puding akan melekat dengan baik.

  • Jangan lupa buat 'sos' nya... Kalau nak sediakan sos, maka puding kena sedikit tawar. Jangan terlampau manis. (Iklan Cegah Diabetes sebelum terlambat)
Itu saja episod masak memasak bersama 'Cooking for Dummy'.. Jumpa lagi di edisi akan datang (n_n)v
Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Apple of My Eyes Forever

Don’t get the wrong idea. He is not Rosyam Nor. He is my father. (as if you see him as the actor).. If not, I might be hallucinating. This is the only photo I kept. My father in his young age. Strong and tall. No moustache (even today). Both of his son, inherited that eyebrow. Thick eyebrow. And that look as well. Nothing much about my father, as we separated since I was 12 years old.
We shared less experienced together, but I can tell that he is a good father. Every time he went for work, he never forget to give us pocket money (not much, 50 cent each) and he will get home almost six. And we had dinner around that big table. And he didn’t talk much. He enjoys watching TV and rarely had a long conversation with us, but he is watching over us. I never find him hang out with his friend at night. If he’s working out of state, he will bring us to A&W for celebration, maybe every week. And let us enjoy, I don’t know if my mum does. But we have. To let us know that he never too far from us and never left us outside his mind. He bought me a sandal, Ninja Turtle. Red sandals and I love that sandals so much as I could still feel it on my feet. It was comfortable.
I remembered he bought me, a white expensive satin Kebaya for Hari Raya, matching hairclips and heels. That was when I am 11 years old. The last Hari Raya as a complete family. I missed the moment we woke up and get dressed. Shake his hand and greet both of them. As an adorable couple and loving...
Nothings last forever. Even he has married to other woman, he is the same father as he was before. The only things that change was the call, from “abah” to “papa”. And we can’t get too close to him, to get loved and protected. As I grew older, and he also.. I feel the gap grows bigger, and can’t even say “I love u dad”… Seldom call him. Maybe once a year? Or never?

I noticed that I had my mum’s forehead, my mum’s smile and I didn’t know if I had resembled her that much. Except for her long hair.. I can’t keep my hair that long, and I kind of jealous of that hair. I guess, one of my younger sisters inherited that one.
That cloth, my mum passed to me when I was 12 and I somehow, love that cloth so much. Being the second child in family, such a fortune. The first daughter.. I had everything. New clothes, necklace which I remembered so much. It hurt my neck and I’ve been scolded by mum every time for biting the pendant.. as my hobby. And I always lost my earring every time I woke up from sleep. Too much accessories, I felt suffocated. And, now I kind of 180 transform. I hate to wear any gold and necklace. I didn’t feel myself suit with the gold color.
Mum had always protected me from any danger. And, crying. That explained why I’m always in her lap. In most photos. She always reminds me about me being naughty, but an intelligent daughter exceeding others. Lay on me all her ambition that she never reach, and hoping I will someday make her proud. She motivated me each day, in studies and even in love. I never kept secrets from her. Even a tiny bug. I wish I will have long lasting life with her. So she could see how I perform, how far I’ve reach and how I manage my family. Our family.
This is me and my brother, the only brother. He is sort of naughty and stubborn. He is apple of my dad’s eyes till today. Even he always blame me for everything (jealous maybe), he is the one who protected me from naughty boy. I remembered him as a strong brother. Never pissed him off. I remembered the time that I’ve lost my Power Rangers’ Watch, a gift from dad for both of us… And one of my classmates stole it. I was crying but can do nothing. I let him know and the next day, he grabs that boy’s school uniform and few buttons loose from it. And warned him. And that boy had never shown up in front of him. Ever!

This is my younger sisters.  She actually is a better sister than me. I was a bit naughty and not play much role as a sister myself. She is quiet, kind, soft hearted and patience. She stayed home and helped my mum a lot while I act like a boy, playing football and play role as Swordsman all day long with my boys. (when my mother wept her cheeks watching Hindi Movies). As you can see in this photo, what you see is what you get. She had grown up to be a great lady. She studied hard to get where she is now, and for the record, she is stronger than me facing life’s obstacles. I adore her for that, for her patience, for her softness. She resembled mum on that strong will and courage. Less complained and faithful.

And this is my twin. She is 6 years older opps.. younger. (Oh god!! I cant accept this). We like almost the same things but not same people. She grew up, in harsh life as well. I can say that she is strong too. She is quiet (big difference of us). The similarities only in appearance. We had same face, smile.. a bit.. Even mum sometimes wrongly addressed us. I guess she is getting old. But, I know, she must be proud having us as her daughter. One is funny and the other is funnier. If I always keep my mum a company, she is not. She is someone who love to lay alone on bed watching The Big Bang Theory, or maybe Hindi Movies. Hindi? Yes! We all love that. Mum taught us that. Funny. If I am good at making cakes, she is good at making desserts. But we are no good than a chef. Far from it. She hates martial art. She didn’t eat much. If I need someone to talk to, or being crazy, she is my 1st prey. She bleed her ears listening to my complains and anger, I guess. At first, she is dependant.. and for that I’ve ignored her for some time and let her on her own feet. And now she is much independent. And grown up as a better person and child. I bet she might be better than I thought she might be. And I pray for that. That some day, we all have our own successful life. But together as we were before. Long distance, but very close to each others heart.

I wish to stop here for to go! (n_n)V

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v