Live With Excitement

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Out of Zone For A Moment

Day 2

Page 184.. I’ve read thought t he novel till page 214 and yet, the lady painted by Robert was still mysterious. My heart pounding, eager to know who is actually he drew in all his painting.

As well as his ex-wife.

There are a few page imagining the some kind of under worldly love but is it Robert? I can’t tell. It is so mysterious. No wonder, Dr. Andrew Marlow break all his rule and principles to get to the root of Robert’s mental illness cause.

I have missed a few calls and SMS, drowning into this mystery for almost two days. I’ve regretted why I didn’t read this book earlier so I could have finish it by now. I’ll send them an apology later for not even answering their call of SMS. I rarely ignore my surrounding… I can put my work as an exception as I ignore most of moving things when I’m working.

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Mary. Who Robert always mentioned, dead? I have to keep reading to know is Mary is former student of Robert? Is it Mary? Or Beatrice?

Poor Kate, to have married that guy.

Does Beatrice who falls in love with Olivier Vignot? 1978?

A relationship between nephew and an uncle?

Gilbert Thomas painting?

The one that Robert tried to stab?

I began to read more and more.. My effort hasn’t gone to the vain. Mystery of Mary solved. Yes. She is the one who Robert run away with, but she isn’t the lady in the painting. Robert has leaved that lady as well as he leave his wife, Kate for Mary.

Is this what we call Karma. The day Yo built your own happiness in spite of others tears, you will feel the same. Should I feel pity for Mary? No. I shall say, it deserved you very well.

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I’ve read through almost 200 pages today, yet the Ms Melancholy (if I can call her) hasn’t revealed yet. And, I fall asleep with open book on my hand. The sound of key, wake me up. My housemate going out for a date I guess. And, before off to the kitchen, I’ve to tap off the pipe which left un tap accidently by her. Not as negligence as I am who left the keys hanging on the gate last two days. This has left me abandoned or dumped outside my own house.

Leave off the books open and heading to the kitchen. Thinking of something to cook, fo a bachelor lady like me. Most probably enjoy my lunch alone on the couch in front of newly bought, but old fashioned notebook.

I’m planning to continue reading this evening, at better place, calmer and windy place – Taman Metropolitan.

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Money Isn't Everything

I've received this poem, from a patient during Chinese New Year celebration.

I didn't give special treatment to them, just being nice and smile no matter how they make you hustle and bustle till the end of the day. It might last an hour and it might last for years. But, it is joyful to see them smile and happy again.

The way I treat them is the way how I imagine people will treat my mother in future. My mother has never been sick or hospitalized. Alhamdulillah. Allah has challenge us with the broken family, but He gave us the health.

Everytime I saw them at the clinic, I smiled. Even I didn't know any of them. Because "Senyum itu Sedekah"...
I smile because I want to make them feel relieved, not worried. And some of them smile back, some of them don't. But still, it give warmth to my heart.

I smile because I want them to feel welcomed. And like saying: "don't worry..it's gonna be fine."

And for that..they gave me this..

Thank you Allah for giving me an opportunity to enjoy the life (n_n)v

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

A Small Give from A Big Heart

Penghargaan buat yang menghargai...

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Hari Bengang Sedunia

Aku tak tahu kenapa. Aku paling tak suka rasa dikongkong, diperhatikan atau disalah anggap. Sangat tak suka. Kehidupan peribadi diganggu. FB, tempat untuk aku berbicara tentang apa saja (kecuali tentang kehidupan rahsia aku). Pasal kerja, maybe.. Tapi ada limitnya. Not to be serious. Kalau nak serious, baik aku cakap face to face ngan orang tu kan?

Kadang2 ada yang tak faham kegunaan FB. Nk eratkan silaturrahim, atau nak stalk orang. Pilih mana satu. Bagi aku, ada FB, untuk bagi family aku up-to-date.. And kawan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa. Tapi bukan nak tunjukkan keburukan orang, atau nak kondem orang. Me on FB isn't me in reality. Some I might share, some I didn't...

I don't know what their FB for... Stalking people? Or checking out each others GF/BF..

Judge me on FB, but u'll never know me in life... If anything make me feel irritate, (coz I'm sensitive!), face the consequences. I'll let people in, but I'll let people go or maybe forced them to go. I hate being controlled coz my parents didn't teach me that way. My parents believe in me, trust in me and let me explore the world.. And I'm never break that promise.. Thats why I'm being who I am now. Love my parents to the top.

Some secrets, I let people know (so it never be a secret)... But some has broke that trust.. And even worse, turn it to chaos. I felt regretted, till today to be so nice, to be so innocent. I thought being nice is good. But some has crossed that border, and I felt, I would never trust anyone from now on!

We hope that people could guide us to a better life, but it is wrong.. Only family who really understand who we are.. Other than that, people are misleading. They all human btw..

Rasa terjun dari bangunan pon tak dapat hilangkan rasa sebal dalam hati ni... I've trusted a wrong person!

Even a 1000 cups of coffee with a friend it is too little (n_n)v